in progress

I cant even contextualize the way I feel right now I hear you breathe feel the heat but not now that was then I cant seem to wrap my mind around this big fucking question this issue the issue i'm having why wasn’t I born and raised in a house right next to yours I wanna be with you now i'm not patient and I wont fucking wait I wanna be with you through everything telling you anything we’d rap together play shows together sleep so close at night hold me tight and don’t ever let go I told you so I get attached there's no shame in that just don’t go fucking around behind my back telling me lies and laying down smack cos I don’t take that shit anymore i'm crazy about you and everyone that I love I cant get it enough i'm full to the top but I keep asking for more my tummy's aching but its not all that the pills I mean they're out of the picture now for the most part I don’t need to suffocate my body or my soul not another year will go by like that he fucking hurt me and you know it he fed me pain intravenously after he called me why just cos I fucked him? I gave him something that was mine something that doesn’t mean shit but still its now his. Does he know? Did he see that lie?